cant bring myself to panic even though i know im pretty much screwed. somehow i cant get myself all worked up like how i was for Os. maybe coz i dont see it as the be all and end all any more. no matter what, life still goes on and we just live with what we've done. or didnt do. anyhows, it doesnt matter la.
caroline was saying on her blog that shes gonna be 19 soon. and i was thinking hey, im gonna be eighteen in two weeks! it sounds like shes so much older den me. haha. but i like being a november baby. thats one pasture thats always gonna be the greenest to me. coz november is my favouritest month. besides practically my whole familys birthdays being in november, november is also means the holidays, christmas coming, chinese new year just around the corner, countdown, and all the things that make life worth living. i think i last the whole year just to see my november come :)
and ive got good news for you guys. no more emo posts from ming! haha. does that brighten up your day much? well. if ming violates what she has just stated, you are free to deal with her at your discretion. but she is confident of what she has said, so there. ming feels she has grown up. ming knows she has become old and cynical, like how she always feared she would end up. she feels that she cant help it and you are free to disagree but she will not be swayed. ming is retreating behind those high walls so she can be safe from all hurt from now on. cheers to the rest of you who believe in all things pink and fluffy and heart-shaped. still, we can all be happy. our happiness is mutually exclusive, no?
basically, ming is going to be self-sufficient. no, shes not moving to an island and growing her own vegetables and stuff.
she is going to make her happiness independent of all variables, so that she can be happy no matter what.
a star fell from the sky;
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